Disobeying

Our narrator is someone who is subject to other people and does not ever get to act on her own instincts. She is always being controlled by other people and has basically lost her sense of free-will. Although, we have seen her defy specific instructions on a few occasions, and if we look at those times,  those times resulted in the most problems or complications for her.

Examples are when a while back, the narrator was instructed to go change the travel reservations when they were to leave Monte Carlo, and that resulted in the marriage proposal and a doomed, superficial, relationship with an older man. Second, I would mainly like to focus on the instance when the narrator  goes after Jasper even though specifically instructed not to. Even though, in a positive manner, I semi-apprectiate that for one time she is not being insecure and that she does something she feels is right, this leads to the fight between the narrator and Max. Because they never worked out the root of this argument, I think that it is just another thing that will always be lying under the surface. Someday all these hidden problems will come out and blow up in everyone's faces.

Although this may sound terrible, when our narrator does what she thinks is best, it leads her astray and makes things worse when right now her life is less than ideal...


One other idea that I had about the relationship between Rebecca and the narrator is the the letter R. Page 120 says, "The R dwarfed the other letters" and this relates to the narrator because she is "dwarfed" by Rebecca, coming one of the "other letters." Rebecca is a big thundercloud over the narrators head that follows her every move. The rain will eventually pour, because Max and the narrator can not continue coasting through, or acting for the rest of their lives.